Lifelong Learning

What I am learning about myself is that I am little more complex than I realize, or like to admit. I have done some good reflecting recently and there are some astonishing finds. I have fears, doubts and worries. They might not be top of mind all the time, but they are there trying to derail my life. Where did I pick these things up? Why can’t I let them go? This is the learning process, and it is eye opening! I am going to share one of these things, don’t judge, just learn along with me. I have a fear of success, what that means is that if I put my foot forward and things go well, well one day they won’t go well. Well what do I do with that fear? (lots of wells in there, lets go with it) I go into the WELL of my life, and see what has muddied the waters. Have I had failures like this, no not really. So what is it that holds me back. The truth is nothing, there are no real memories or events that I can link to this. But it is there, and it is compounded by other thoughts. What can I do about it, work through it, walk through it. I turn to God, He has never let me down. I turn to friends and tell them, you know what sometimes I deal with this thing… I turn to look at myself and assess and say “You know what self, you are believing a lie!” I trust that when I do good at things, that I take what I have learned and add that to

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my tool belt. Also, when things go horribly wrong, yep I can learn from that too. So why fear success, and why hold back? The lesson I am learning culminates with this. “Success is a good thing, and I will be able to carry that success with past experience and gained knowledge.”

There you go, so what are you learning about yourself these days?